My cancer is cured. That is what my doctor told me at my two-year visit. The FLT3 genetic mutation that I had increased my chance of relapse early on. The first hundred days after transplant were a high-risk time for me. Every day that passed decreased my risk of relapse. Today the chance that I will relapse is infinitesimal. My cancer journey is over. I will always be a transplant patient and I still have to see my doctor every six months, but leukemia is in my past.
Dr. El-Jawahri discontinued my last two prescriptions and what a relief that was/is. I have been taking an anti-viral and oral chemo daily for two years. The side effects were unpleasant. My intestines have been a jumbly, rumbly mess. I learned to be careful about what I ate. Still, some days I didn’t dare stray too far from the house. And the fatigue, a ball and chain I dragged through the day, mostly gone now. I feel better than I have in years. Literally two and a half years of varying degrees of illness. So…What do I do now?
When I was diagnosed in 2015 I was in the midst of a career change. I was one course short of getting an associate’s degree in web development. I was an A student and I had every intention of taking the final class in the next semester. In the third week of an internship, I was suddenly hospitalized and received massive amounts of chemo. For the next six months, I was incredibly ill. Guess what happened to my newfound knowledge? It evaporated. Chemo was like a blowtorch to my brain. I can’t blame it entirely on chemotherapy. Anytime you learn a new tech skill, it’s important to use it. Practice and practical application cements the information in your brain. It’s mostly the chemo though. It seems to have carved a hole in my memory.
So… what do I do. I spent time, energy and money on programming classes. Should I start over and try to relearn C++, HTML, CSS and Visual Basic? Alternatively, should I take this as a message from God? “Gayle, take a hint, a career in web development is not for you.” said the almighty one. What to do, what to do? I wake up at night with this question ringing in my ears. Let me be honest. It’s not just the career question that has me puzzled. My life changed abruptly in June 2015. Now it has happened again. Until recently, my world revolved around Leukemia, treatment and recovery. Today I am free to return to a normal life. You would think that would be easy. I’m sure I’ll figure it out although it might take some trial and error. No one can do it for me. Stay tuned in, the life after leukemia adventure continues.
